Favorite Products of May 2011

1. Essie nail polish - Lilacism


2. C.O Bigelow lip balm

3. Bath and Body Works hand sanitizer - Caribbean Escape

4. Clean and Clear facial cleansers



5. Too Faced Pin Point mascara - Extreme Thickening



6. Steve Madden Cougarr pumps - Taupe



7. Rimmel lipstick - Nostaliga and Dizzy

Nostaliga

Dizzy

Relationships

I am not a professional in relationships whatsoever. This is all just coming from experience and what I think relationships involve.

I have to admit, I grew up as an unattractive girl. I was a major tomboy and the only thing people admired about me was how nicely I tanned. I had plenty of crushes on boys and celebrities but, the first time a boy asked me out it was in grade 8 and I got so scared I just said no. I thought it was a joke because that boy and I at the moment were good friends and he asked me on a little scrunched up ball of paper. Which was cute but, I was still terrified. It wasn't until I was age 17 when I had my first boyfran! Now a couple years later my collection went from 1 boyfriend to 2 boyfriends. So, I am still new to "dating" and being in a "relationship".

I just exited a relationship recently with a guy who I broke up with before. Before I got involved with boys I thought to myself that girls who gets back into relationships with their ex's are stupid.
I mean, you broke up with them for a reason. A pretty big reason worth breaking up over. Do you think that big of a thing would go away because you guys had a break from each other? Whether it be friends, family, her respect, his respect, their habits, WHATEVER it may be... it is hard to change. I also thought people who force their significant other to change or wait for them to change are stupid. They aren't being true to themselves and clearly they want someone that wasn't them. No matter how firm I stood on those statements I was still a victim to all of those. Why? Because love make you do crazy things. It is much easier to see clear when you are in third person rather than the actual people in the relationship.
One of the huge no-no's about relationships are rushing into it or forcing it. Things should feel natural and things should come naturally. Yes, there are some things where you can remind the other person about and everything is good, that is fine. If you find yourself or the other person to be saying the same thing over and over, keep a look out. No, I'm not saying repeating's of good things, I mean repeating's of bad things. Like the other person is constantly reminding you of something. If you have to be forced to say or do something to make the other person happy... don't you think what you say or do should come naturally?

Friends and family are important. Your friends and family and their friends and family are important. I don't know about you but, if I cannot get a long with my boyfriend's friends or family, that is a turn off and not a good sign to me. I know some of you will say or heard of "You're not going out with their friends and family so, that doesn't matter". That's technically true but, their friends and family are still part of them. You think you guys can have a long term relationship or even get married without ever having to deal with their friends and family, ever? If you thought "Yes", You's crazy. Besides from you, they see their friends and family the most. Even if everybody on their side accepts you but, your friends and family do not accept your lover... you should really consider the reasons why they feel that way.

Habits. Habits are just habits, been doing them all your life, no biggie! Wrong. They're no biggie to you, well you may be bothered by them yourself but, if you have a habit that bothers your lover or vice versa, that is very hard to overcome. It is almost impossible to succumb those habits. I tried to truly accept my ex's habits but, in the end I've had enough and couldn't. If you're thinking about marrying this person, really focus on how they do things. Everyday things from laundry, food, and leisure stuff. Do you think they're going to pull their weight when you guys live together or marry? Do they expect you to do everything a woman is suppose to do? If you are okay with doing everything they expect you to do then all power to you! I wish I was more like that. But, I believe that not only the woman has to cook or clean or do chores and guys just work and fix things. Both genders and can a mix of both! Maybe it's not about gender rules, maybe it's other things they do that you can't stand no matter how hard you try to fight it. You have to be totally fine with their good and bad habits.

There's no need to rush into being in a relationship, hun. I know you will think "What if they are the one?" "What if they're different from the others?" "What if they'll change?". Just be wise. Learn from your past. Take care of your heart and yourself being. Remember the hurtful moments, don't dread on it, just keep it in mind so you can be in check and know what exactly you need.

Favorite Essie Polishes (as of right now)

1. Essie Lilacism

Any light pink is my favorite but next to my light pinks this is right next to it. The perfect light purple color. My favorite color of all time of course, besides my light pinks. Also, this has been my favorite for almost 2 years now.

2. Essie Haute As Hello

A very pretty coral color, soo cute.

3. Essie Sugar Daddy

A nice cloudy pink. I find that with other light pink nail polishes I would have to apply 3-4 coats to get that nice kind of cloudy pink. Though, with this it already looks nice with just 1 coat. If 2 coats then that'll probably equal to my 3-4 coats of normal light pink polishes. Sugar daddy ;)

7 Things To Do To Make You Happy

1. Wear heels around the house
2. Wear heels around the house with just panties on!
3. Paint your nails a bright beautiful color
4. Blast your music and clean (perhaps a little strut around the house also)
5. Spray your room/house/car/clothes with refreshing perfume
6. Eat something extremely fattening
7. Pretty up your hair (I know it may take awhile but I know you will feel amazing after)

My High School Experience

I've been watching a few "high school story" videos on youtube. The first one I watched was by AndreasChoice. I couldn't believe that such a pretty and well spoken girl like her was once bullied.

After being graduated from high school for some time now I really wanted to tell myself when I was back in high school to not care about what other people think. Don't care if they'll approve of your hair, clothes, the people you hung out with, it's all so stupid. The people I went to high school with, I don't even talk to them anymore, I don't even see them anymore! They are pretty much out of my life since the day I graduated. I went to 3 different high schools and I only speak to occasionally are a handful of people.

My first high school, I was there for 2 years and it wasn't bad at all. I wasn't extremely popular but, I wasn't someone with no friends. I was in between and no one really bothered me. I actually enjoyed myself there. Then came my second high school, I was only there for 1 year. This was the best year of high school for me. I didn't know how I ended up in the popular group because I was sitting by myself in the cafeteria trying to look like I'm doing something. I was wondering how long will it take for me to find myself a group of friends and just find my place in the school and the new city. Now to my third high school, my last year of high school. This was in a different country and after having my first move to my second high school with the great results, I was so excited for the third school. I thought, okay, I'm not going to be seeing my old friends again but, I can make new ones again. Who knew, this was the worst year for me. It was extremely hard for me to fit into somewhere. The lunches were the worst for me. I had people to sit with but, there are some days where they're not there. So, I would end up staying in the library for my lunch period and not eat. I didn't want to eat by myself. I met some friends who was cool but we didn't have the same lunch period and that sucked. I tried joining clubs to make new friends, that kind of helped. Overall, I only keep in touch with 1 person from that school. They were a new student as well but, they moved back to where they came from. Even though I despised that year, my grades were the best out of all my years. Not only because I wasn't distracted by socializing but the curriculum there was the best out of the 3 high school's. They actually care about your grades, they wanted you to succeed. They had free tutoring before school and after school by the teachers or volunteered students.

So, to revise myself earlier, after experiencing of being popular, a nerd, and in between it really made me a more open person. There are a lot of pressure in high school but, for those who don't care about what people say and still do their own thing, I am so proud of them! I wish I was like that and just did me. I learnt not to judge people from their looks, don't choose who to be friends with because of what you assume their status is. You have no idea what that person went through. I've seen it in movies, the videos I've watched and from my own experience that the popular people usually die down afterwards. The not so pretty people back then are like smoking hot after high school. The popular people usually end up working at some lame job where the nerds have careers and loving what they do. I'm not saying all popular people are unsuccessful after high school and I'm not saying all nerds have great careers. I'm saying that there are times where the two switch roles after high school.

Your status in high school will no longer apply when you graduate high school. You will meet new people, you guys will have no idea what each others history was and I'm pretty sure you don't care if you guys are already clicking and being friends. I'm actually glad that I got a taste of the rough side to high school or else I could've ended up a jerk for the rest of my life. I'm willing to make friends with anyone I meet, no matter their looks, the way they talk, whatever. If I like your personality then that's all that matters.